Oh haven't so many things happened since the LAST entry I posted?

I don't think I can really stand the bowling alley anymore, between the fun with Alan and the ... "memory" with Aaron. No. I don't think I'll be spending much time at the bowling alley any time soon... or the movie theatre for that matter.

And I really don't want to get into all the shit that happened, so if you don't know the details or specifics, either seek me out so I can lay it all down for you or just forget about all the drama. It should be over pretty much today or tomorrow or in the next few days. If it doesn't end within a few days, I think I'll go insane.

And to those that know what I decided and are thinking that I made a bad choice; I don't care. I've made up my mind and when I have, hardly anything can be said or done to change it. And I think that for my own sake, it's the best option. I'm looking out for MYSELF and as bitchy as this may sound, I don't care what it takes to secure that my demands/wishes are met. I'm over the fact that I "hurt" him and at this very moment, couldn't care if I'm hurting him any more by doing this. I am also not acting out of my strange need to "punish" myself. That was a one-day affair and I'm past it.

Please don't try to talk me out of it or reason with me, trying to get me to take his offer of friendship. I don't want to hear it. It will only piss me off. And I don't want people badgering me for my reasons. If I've tried to explain it to you already and you still didn't understand, then to hell with it. I don't feel the need to explain the reasons behind my decisions. I just want my decisions to be accepted and followed -- no questions. You can be confused all you want but as long as you still follow through with what I want, I couldn't care for your confusion.

Call me a bitch, call me cold or cruel. I don't give a fuck. This is me and I'm not changing any time soon.

Accept it and move on.